It’s not easy to trust life, people and even ourselves. I spent years being too stubborn for my own good that in the end I had to be forced to remain in a state of stillness (or “stuck-ness” as I called it at the time). I had no other option available to me than to dive even deeper into myself and find a part of me that was as loving as love can be. I was physically injured at the time, and the recovery time was taking longer than expected. During this time, I kept swinging from feeling good to feeling strong resistance, anger and pain. “When will this pain go away?” I kept asking myself. “Why has this happened to me?”, “I wish my life was better”, and so on.
One day, I was reading one of Gary Zukav’s books. He is a wonderful spiritual teacher and author who has written a great deal about living life in alignment with your authentic Self. Reading his books, it occurred to me why I had been forced into stillness without a job or a body that was in a position to do much. My inner light bulb suddenly switched on after Gary wrote: “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. You receive from the world what you give to the world… An authentic powered person lives in love. Love is the energy of the soul. Love is what heals the personality. There is nothing that cannot be healed by love. There is nothing but love.”
“What was I giving to the world prior to (and during) my injury? How were my actions creating an opposite reaction?”. I started to reflect over my life. I started to take a good honest look at how I had constructed my life up until that point. Yes, I had achieved a great deal. I had overcome hurdles and I had the ability to do the majority of the things I set my mind to. However, despite this, I wasn’t feeling a sense of peace and freedom within me. Inside my mind, I was living in judgement over the fact that I had reached another rock bottom where I had no money, daily physical pain and barely enough energy to get through the day. Life gave me exactly what I needed for my growth. Why? Because my beliefs were conditional and mistrusting. I would only live in the energy of love if my external conditions were the way I wanted them to be. I would only see myself as prosperous, strong, healthy and powerful if I had enough money, possessions and a fit body to die for. But this is not how the loving energy of the Universe works. You need to get to a point where you can be unconditional about yourself, your life and other people. You literally see yourself as worthy and enough.
Life will present you with everything that you are not, until you start to recognise that who you actually are is love and presence. You are life’s expression of itself. When you completely understand this, your journey will shift from fear to love, and then from love to more love. You will start to open to others as you wish for them to open to you. You will live vulnerably and courageously with a knowing that nothing and no one can take your essence away from you. You will lead your life, as opposed to following the norm, as you make peace with your fears and continue to choose love, no matter what. The key is to befriend trust. Don’t try to get rid of anything about yourself or force for things to change. Just be willing to change and then stay open to signs from the Universe. They always come. Choose to trust.
“Trust allows you to give. Giving is abundant. As you give, so it shall be given to you. If you give with judgement, limitation and stinginess, that is what you will create in your life – judgement, limitation and stinginess.” (Gary Zukav)
You can read further about this topic in Sarah’s book Coming To Life. Coming to Life is a story of courage, of struggle against our own fears and limitations and a reminder that there is more to life than meets the eye. This is a spiritually therapeutic autobiography, which offers hope and inspiration and a map towards growth, fulfillment and consciousness.With great insight and clarity, Sarah shows us the transformative power of bringing awareness to every aspect of ourselves, including the disowned parts of ourselves – The shadow. Through her own story, Sarah injects awareness and consciousness into what we are doing and how we are choosing to live our lives.
Sarah is a Psychotherapist, Mental Health Social Worker, Art Therapist, Artist and Writer. She is also the Practice Manager at Mental Awakening.